fear

good morning peeps..sunny woke me up...huhh,i thought i was late go to class.today, tomorrow, after tomorrow will pass by...where are they?why we can't saw them all back?are they never come again or they just dissapeared like a rainbow?wherever those days go there is a sweet and bitter things inside them that they carried along the day..and who knows one of the sweet and bitter that taken is yours?how are you going to deal with it?you wanna let it go as days passing by or keep fresh in your mind to be remembered?as for me it is like this."things don't always turn out as planned." there will be one time we facing all of that either you are strong enough or not.if you can't find a place to put yourself in, you may create that place. because you yourself are the creater why not it is suit for you right?


i just thinking that how i'm going to gone through all these weeks, days, month,and the moment left?if i keep thinking i'm going crazy enough. To feel secure i just make it easy in my own way. That particular day will always you go through. So, what the different if i was fear because of that?The last i can do is i'll keep shining in God name..Merry Christmas to my beloved family.. I love you all much..dear friends who ever been with me in idle time or the happy moment we shared together i would like to say Merry Christmas too.

mayday...

i'm going to have a precious moment this week=)..i got valued time with them all..just a month left for me to sit for final exam..i forgot what bad about is and i'm ready to be me as well.There is nothing i fear to and worried about..everything was released already..there is people who cares..


thanks lord jesus...

home flu..

hua...cerita punya cerita suda maw final nie..tapi tiket kapal terbang belum booking lagi..aduhh,sebab tunggu jadual exam keluar dulu ba kan..last2 suda mahal jadi nya...ermm...cepat la balik...


seronok & rasa diberkati bila semuanya ada..terima kasih tuhan..thanks lord jesus..saya punyai buah keyakinan lagi untuk memuji & menyembah engkau..your born saved the world..
krismas kurang sebulan lagi..jadi,di sinilah sambutan krismas saya tahun ni bersama-sama pelajar sabah sarawak yang lain..berkumpul menjadi satu..
buat keluarga saya..semoga semuanya sihat dan diberkati selalu..and specialy for my mom,be strong and keep live..God always with you..and your daughter here was missing you so much..to dad,when i call i wanted to hear that broken english you always used to speak with me..and for those agnes and jusua perhaps you two be nice and wait i go home then we got our valued time...

monday till sunday

hye you all...its quite has been a long time not updating here...i was busy with "school matters"hehe...by the way, i really miss home this moment..every morning i woke  up sure ill remember home..huhu..how sweet it is..
owkay,now im gonna to strive for final project assignment..and also the two event,,,.wow..seems time was jealous of me..hikhik..tadi balut hamper kat bilik tuk budak2 oku..selasa ni gi event tu ah...perhaps ape yg dah plan sume tu jadi ar nanti..
nak share la ckit pic td..tp gambo i xder sbb i jd photographer..hehe

mid term break

shalom everyone....i'm wake up in the morning of monday...you hate monday?no, i'm not because it is holiday already. if not sure lazy to get up.urmmm, want talk what today huh?stay at college with members of sarawakian and sabahan while others going back hometown.but then we got something interesting instead of being locked like a cat here.haha...
want know what?yesterday after come back from church we tapau the char siew rice..haha..and take dinner together..seems thre is no one around why not right?hehe..thanks timmy,denny and nicholas..


me?im succesfully done with the case study group..huhu,..done one task already..today start the engine again.hehe...haaa,i've one picture to share..just like to capture it..

i'll stop here then..if got time i'll post again..God bless..

^@^...^!^

welcome again....today wanna say what ah?ermm...ohya, today i got a bit shopping buy a little gift for my brother and sister before i go back holiday this end of january..wuah,,missing them two lots.who want join me going back please raise your hand.^___^
i'm getting to get new friend instead of kechik later on. so perhaps that moment will come soon...huhu...

i'm going busy with the event and those project. so i was felt that my life will be very meaningful ever. and with these all i can forget all the past and move towards a shining star. even it is difficult i've to because there's nothing else i could wait for..as long as i have Lord Jesus with me and i knew that He never forget me but i'm the one that forget Him...

broken heart revealed

it's  night already. i'm still searching for something that is impossible. come on seriam, you can do it!! that damn things passed almost three weeks already and i still cannot forget it all. why i'm the who had to accept all of these? am i that unlucky? am i that bad? i do not know why..it seems kill me for the entire of my life.i was felt that i can't survive without him and finally i realized one thing. what for i kept waiting and hoping for nothing that impossible and unreacheable? because i'm the only one who keep tought that he will be always mine. but him? he just simply sat that hurt words and give me pain all the way. never mind then i give it all to the loved one..lord jesus..He know everything than i am..so, want it or not i have to stop here..

innocence

waking up i see everything is OK
the first time in my life and now it's so great,
slowing down i look around and i am so amazed,
i think about the little things that make life great,
i wouldn't change a thing about it
THIS IS THE BEST FEELING
this innocence is brilliant
i hope that it will stay
this moment is perfect
please don't go away
i need you now
and i'll hold on to it
don't you let it pass you by
i found a place so safe,
not a single tear
the first time in  my life and now it's so clear,
feel calm, i belong
i'm so happy here
it's so strong and now i let myself be sincere,
it's a state of bliss, you think you're dreaming,
it's the happiness inside that you're feeling,
it's so beautiful it makes you wanna cry

deep thinking at some valued moment

one day

hi all, how you behave today?mine was interesting day full with meaning.yeah!!why not?i go for WOW Program that is world of work at shah alam convention centre.its benefited me as i graduated later.beside, all the panels are from Asian and UK.and from that moment i start imagining that ill worked where and with whom in the future.yeah, that would be my future career and ill pray so that i can be success dreamer.


okay, done with WOW part already. now move on to the current environment. we go there and come back here at the same situation.rain heavily and i was freezing inside with the aircond.gerrrr..~~~as i go through my daily i never forget about him. keep praying everything...=^=

littlelittle

all i want is someone who will stay no matter hard it is to be with me.i want him to be my companion for entire of my life. i want him to know that i really care about him a lots than he think. i always imagining that a lot of things that i would like to happen before i go to sleep. i wish i could meet him in my dreams^_^


just stick together till there is no end. how sweet and romantic it is right?its all about you...and...me... 

Him and him..

I LOVE YOU 

YOU ARE MINE...

YOUR NAME IS WRITTEN UPON MY HEART...

YOUR PRAYERS ARE PRECIOUS TO ME...

YOUR LIFE IS IN MY HANDS...

      I AM ALWAYS WITH YOU

      I AM NEARER TO YOU THAN

      YOUR OWN HEART.

      I GAVE MY LIFE SO THAT YOU

      MIGHT LIVE FOREVER WITH ME

      SO CAN I ASK YOU TO BE MINE?

OUR FATHER IN HEAVEN,

MAY YOUR NAME BE KEPT HOLY.

MAY YOUR KINGDOM COME SOON.

MAY YOUR WILL BE DONE ON EARTH,

AS IT IS IN HEAVEN.

GIVE US TODAY THE FOOD WE NEED,

AND FORGIVE US OUR SINS,

AS WE HAVE FORGOTTEN THOSE WHO SIN

AGAINST US.

AND DON'T LET US YIELD TO TEMPTATION,

BUT RESCUE US FROM EVIL ONE.

happy~~~

halo babe...know what happen today?what the most amazing is i got test that is open book test=_=...huahua...thankful to that lecture.seems she know i've no idea to having a test today..hehe..and then the second thing make me happy is tomorrow is holiday for deepavali and no need go to class but i'll go to shah alam mall to go attend program there..*senang ati ma..*ops, one more thing..i miss him damn much~~~^=^


tonight plan:-

• settle down OB motivation subject

• revise for test and quizzes next week

• call dad and si kurus

ohya, i've things to share here. that is about 'God has a plan for our life. Be faithfull, patient and obedient. Things will smooth themselves out' . Therefore whatever happen in my life i'll accept it as a drive for myself to continue survive. Even it is such a hurt , pain and hard i've to swallow it all..yupp!!
omg, its rain again..i hate rain..puncak was flooded with drain water..huhu..and i keep typing here update my blog..i think that's all for these moment..i'll post again when ideas turn out...>^^<

out of mind

people out there, i can't focus doing my task.huhh~~this should not happen. moreover i got test and quizzes for the entire next week.oh dear God, help me out from these feelings..

by the way, my tummy asking for food right now..hehe..well, its just a normal thing, no need to worry about because suit with it already..aha, wanna told you all that ill capture picture of myself everyday as a motivation how i was look like..so means that one or two picture each day..hehe..like it much..so that i can review myself through that picture..

today's feed^_^=)

• pay owe to yatt...
• mr. hafiz insert class activity to watch video regarding his subject >^^<fun and interesting..
• chaos awhile because of heavy rain at puncak and at the same time i still got class. make everybody panic and lecture dismiss class 30 minutes early..*happy inside* 

 

i wish i could

wanna say something for today moment.. as usual go kuliah same with others...what make it different is i felt something was missing...and then i realized that and i found that i miss him...=)ya, i do miss him damn much. everything related to him will make me automatically remembered at him...omg~~~suffer than anything...

every single second and moment there must be him exist in my daily.....but the things is i do not know either he got time to notice about me or vice versa...just perhaps that one fine day he will be mine forever..perhaps so and may god bless it.....

okeh,..i can survive without you but then the things is likely its doesn't complete and perfect at all...

ill keep waiting and be there for you...

in a moment, everything can change

feel the wind on your shoulder, for a minute

all the world can wait, let go of your yesterday

can you hear it calling?can you feel it your soul?

can you trust this longing?and take control?

fly...open up the parts of you

that wants to hide away, you can shine!

forget about the reason, why you can't in life

and start to try, cause its your time!

time to fly!

all your worries leave them somewhere else

find a dream you can follow

reach for something, when there nothing left

and the world feelings hollow

and when you're down and feel alone

just want to run away!

trust yourself and don't give up

you know you better than anyone else..

seriam before...

a terrible day

this week such a water flow...lots thing happen and i just keep hope and hope..i do not know how i'm going to faces all these mess...it never want me to be in peace..i'm not blame anyone or anything but i felt that i'll always in a bad position...i kept worried about that..
today activities 16 october 2011:
1) wake up at the morning and go meet my friend at times square
2)buying stuff and had ladies time..shopping.~~~
3) going back with tiredness and the worst i've to stand along the way back
4)get bath and take a nap
5)finally open my notebook. suddenly idea comes to create this...huhu