broken heart revealed

it's  night already. i'm still searching for something that is impossible. come on seriam, you can do it!! that damn things passed almost three weeks already and i still cannot forget it all. why i'm the who had to accept all of these? am i that unlucky? am i that bad? i do not know why..it seems kill me for the entire of my life.i was felt that i can't survive without him and finally i realized one thing. what for i kept waiting and hoping for nothing that impossible and unreacheable? because i'm the only one who keep tought that he will be always mine. but him? he just simply sat that hurt words and give me pain all the way. never mind then i give it all to the loved one..lord jesus..He know everything than i am..so, want it or not i have to stop here..

innocence

waking up i see everything is OK
the first time in my life and now it's so great,
slowing down i look around and i am so amazed,
i think about the little things that make life great,
i wouldn't change a thing about it
THIS IS THE BEST FEELING
this innocence is brilliant
i hope that it will stay
this moment is perfect
please don't go away
i need you now
and i'll hold on to it
don't you let it pass you by
i found a place so safe,
not a single tear
the first time in  my life and now it's so clear,
feel calm, i belong
i'm so happy here
it's so strong and now i let myself be sincere,
it's a state of bliss, you think you're dreaming,
it's the happiness inside that you're feeling,
it's so beautiful it makes you wanna cry

deep thinking at some valued moment

one day

hi all, how you behave today?mine was interesting day full with meaning.yeah!!why not?i go for WOW Program that is world of work at shah alam convention centre.its benefited me as i graduated later.beside, all the panels are from Asian and UK.and from that moment i start imagining that ill worked where and with whom in the future.yeah, that would be my future career and ill pray so that i can be success dreamer.


okay, done with WOW part already. now move on to the current environment. we go there and come back here at the same situation.rain heavily and i was freezing inside with the aircond.gerrrr..~~~as i go through my daily i never forget about him. keep praying everything...=^=

littlelittle

all i want is someone who will stay no matter hard it is to be with me.i want him to be my companion for entire of my life. i want him to know that i really care about him a lots than he think. i always imagining that a lot of things that i would like to happen before i go to sleep. i wish i could meet him in my dreams^_^


just stick together till there is no end. how sweet and romantic it is right?its all about you...and...me... 

Him and him..

I LOVE YOU 

YOU ARE MINE...

YOUR NAME IS WRITTEN UPON MY HEART...

YOUR PRAYERS ARE PRECIOUS TO ME...

YOUR LIFE IS IN MY HANDS...

      I AM ALWAYS WITH YOU

      I AM NEARER TO YOU THAN

      YOUR OWN HEART.

      I GAVE MY LIFE SO THAT YOU

      MIGHT LIVE FOREVER WITH ME

      SO CAN I ASK YOU TO BE MINE?

OUR FATHER IN HEAVEN,

MAY YOUR NAME BE KEPT HOLY.

MAY YOUR KINGDOM COME SOON.

MAY YOUR WILL BE DONE ON EARTH,

AS IT IS IN HEAVEN.

GIVE US TODAY THE FOOD WE NEED,

AND FORGIVE US OUR SINS,

AS WE HAVE FORGOTTEN THOSE WHO SIN

AGAINST US.

AND DON'T LET US YIELD TO TEMPTATION,

BUT RESCUE US FROM EVIL ONE.

happy~~~

halo babe...know what happen today?what the most amazing is i got test that is open book test=_=...huahua...thankful to that lecture.seems she know i've no idea to having a test today..hehe..and then the second thing make me happy is tomorrow is holiday for deepavali and no need go to class but i'll go to shah alam mall to go attend program there..*senang ati ma..*ops, one more thing..i miss him damn much~~~^=^


tonight plan:-

• settle down OB motivation subject

• revise for test and quizzes next week

• call dad and si kurus

ohya, i've things to share here. that is about 'God has a plan for our life. Be faithfull, patient and obedient. Things will smooth themselves out' . Therefore whatever happen in my life i'll accept it as a drive for myself to continue survive. Even it is such a hurt , pain and hard i've to swallow it all..yupp!!
omg, its rain again..i hate rain..puncak was flooded with drain water..huhu..and i keep typing here update my blog..i think that's all for these moment..i'll post again when ideas turn out...>^^<

out of mind

people out there, i can't focus doing my task.huhh~~this should not happen. moreover i got test and quizzes for the entire next week.oh dear God, help me out from these feelings..

by the way, my tummy asking for food right now..hehe..well, its just a normal thing, no need to worry about because suit with it already..aha, wanna told you all that ill capture picture of myself everyday as a motivation how i was look like..so means that one or two picture each day..hehe..like it much..so that i can review myself through that picture..

today's feed^_^=)

• pay owe to yatt...
• mr. hafiz insert class activity to watch video regarding his subject >^^<fun and interesting..
• chaos awhile because of heavy rain at puncak and at the same time i still got class. make everybody panic and lecture dismiss class 30 minutes early..*happy inside* 

 

i wish i could

wanna say something for today moment.. as usual go kuliah same with others...what make it different is i felt something was missing...and then i realized that and i found that i miss him...=)ya, i do miss him damn much. everything related to him will make me automatically remembered at him...omg~~~suffer than anything...

every single second and moment there must be him exist in my daily.....but the things is i do not know either he got time to notice about me or vice versa...just perhaps that one fine day he will be mine forever..perhaps so and may god bless it.....

okeh,..i can survive without you but then the things is likely its doesn't complete and perfect at all...

ill keep waiting and be there for you...

in a moment, everything can change

feel the wind on your shoulder, for a minute

all the world can wait, let go of your yesterday

can you hear it calling?can you feel it your soul?

can you trust this longing?and take control?

fly...open up the parts of you

that wants to hide away, you can shine!

forget about the reason, why you can't in life

and start to try, cause its your time!

time to fly!

all your worries leave them somewhere else

find a dream you can follow

reach for something, when there nothing left

and the world feelings hollow

and when you're down and feel alone

just want to run away!

trust yourself and don't give up

you know you better than anyone else..

seriam before...

a terrible day

this week such a water flow...lots thing happen and i just keep hope and hope..i do not know how i'm going to faces all these mess...it never want me to be in peace..i'm not blame anyone or anything but i felt that i'll always in a bad position...i kept worried about that..
today activities 16 october 2011:
1) wake up at the morning and go meet my friend at times square
2)buying stuff and had ladies time..shopping.~~~
3) going back with tiredness and the worst i've to stand along the way back
4)get bath and take a nap
5)finally open my notebook. suddenly idea comes to create this...huhu