broken heart revealed

it's  night already. i'm still searching for something that is impossible. come on seriam, you can do it!! that damn things passed almost three weeks already and i still cannot forget it all. why i'm the who had to accept all of these? am i that unlucky? am i that bad? i do not know why..it seems kill me for the entire of my life.i was felt that i can't survive without him and finally i realized one thing. what for i kept waiting and hoping for nothing that impossible and unreacheable? because i'm the only one who keep tought that he will be always mine. but him? he just simply sat that hurt words and give me pain all the way. never mind then i give it all to the loved one..lord jesus..He know everything than i am..so, want it or not i have to stop here..